Shantaram

As my status message has been screaming from some time about SHANTARAM I finally couldn’t resist to go to LEOPOLD Café. I am not sure if Gregory David aka “Shantaram” had found the same Leopold but yes it’s definitely a place to hang out.Its got tradition its got crowd its got ambience...in short everything I would like to have at my beer joint .

This also reminds me that 900+ pages of the book does deserve a salutation in my blog. Its a very informative book in various respects. Not just Leopold but the whole point of view which describes the country called India is terrific. India is too diverse a country to fall under any standard definition and worse the way the people of the country behaves is all the more intriguing.

Its amusing but a foreigners account helped me understand my country better .I am no book critic either but its was enlightening to dig into the rationale of the most normalest things which we take for granted as a part of the growing up in INDIA.

The book not only has some incredible personal account but it also says what makes India unique and also what makes Indians the race which they are. Now sure GDP is growing at more than 9% but that’s incidental. The beauty of my countrymen is their insatiable ambitions and tolerance to suffering. What an Indian can do to merely survive has now turned out to be the force which makes brand India sticks.

PS: please read INDIA in slow motion by Mark Tully ..another incredible read.

new look at blog writing

People say that my blogs are based in some fantasy land. And it needs iterations to decipher. Well I guess I am sorta showoff and always want an audience. Which apparently according to of course “people” again is not really a great thing so may be I should write about something more identifiable. I am not sure if I have the wisdom to comment on global topics or burning issues or would anybody be interested to read the daily happenings of my mundane existence but I guess nevertheless the rationale of writing the blog is be open about oneself and of course as they say -- to grow as an individual.

I guess I aint know much about the shit about growing and introspection and all that jazz. But what I do know is writing down all the crap which is making me muddled in the head will definitely can make the life much easier.

So lets get started.
As an aberration to daily schedule I dint check the sensex. My investments and hopes about getting rich are diminishing day by day so got really frustrated and didn’t bothered to check it. Its kinda ostrich technique and I cant really do the hiding act for long . Sometimes I think I should be better with personal finances. Well… someday…

Well I saw the movies which are now regular feature of my life .I think I can now became a movie critic. I don’t know what really the pay packages in this line are else I sure would have applied. One gets to see all the movies...premier shows...sneak peek reviews and all that …not bad for a career option.

There can be more options for sure. I was called for the brainstorming session. I am in 4th Sem of my (OH SO XCITING) MBA I love the people who still have hope about my capabilities about brainstorming. Anyway I didn’t let the opportunity go to throw in some perv jokes and cheap humor. Time well spent I would say.

There’s a thing called self depreciatory humour and I am so very obsessed with it. Its funny there’s some lame satisfaction in it. You can always say that I am the first one to laugh on myself as if disclaimers anybody even cares to read. But ya didn’t I said lame satisfaction. So lame it is I guess.

as usual ..random thoughts

The trivial and philosophical .there might just be some connection. I do not know .Life is a funny concept. Concept if I say so works in a time dynamics isn’t it? Its good to find something that controls it .

To find out that there is a pattern and trend which an individual’s life follows we question the deeds. But were they wrong. Had they been wrong we wouldn’t have done them at the first place. So from where do you start searching? Some say that you should plan and some say that you shouldn’t. You must live by the day. I think both techniques are flawed. If I could plan accuracy I wouldn’t have landed in the shit which I sometimes do. I wouldn’t have made mistakes .But again were they mistakes. They were true and justly behavior at that point of time .So should I be living by the moment? Then what about legacy? What about when you move ahead you cannot take all the people, issues, needs and emotions ahead. How should I make that emotional switch? Is there any such thing like that? .And if not then how can be living by the moment .Unless I keep my intellectual and emotional self separate. Big blasphemy!!

So is there any time dynamics or time is just a backend pacifiers. Time does try to diffuse the upheavals in life and more life just moves on. I can’t correct the mistakes neither can I suggest coz the root cause is me. Then what shall I do? Wait for the time to take over. I do not know. If it’s a waiting game then how can u say that control of destiny is in my hands? I agree that I can control the emotions but controlling is separate. Am I hinting at emotional and sanity payoff?

HA I don’t even know if such a kind of thing exist!!

Age and Wisdom.

My affection with evolution is quite a funny affair. I don’t like much biology I prefer chemistry more than bio quite obviously. Ok whatever that’s not what I am talking about today. The question here arises - is wisdom tooth is related with any wisdom. Scientifically speaking - NO..Ok I wont ask why it is there at the first place. Then what’s this thing about the belief that Age brings wisdom. Had that been true so many things in the life would have been easier?

Age is more important than a silly word. But most of the times it makes people uneasy. Younger ones want to get older...and older ones try to act younger. So far its ok but than people neither feel older nor they wish to feel younger they just wish to pretend. They long to be respected thinking age can buy respect. To some extent it is true in our country. Respect can be bought by putting age as an alibi.

Pretending wisdom is more dangerous than anything else coz it blocks the way from where you can get any help. It barricades any scope of outside help as it says that I know all and can do all without running the scandisk or self-check. And further worse Age says that with passing time It has harnessed more wisdom or you can call it more pretence. So it just glamorizes the whole pretension episode and people can flaunt the wisdom calling it Age-earned

Face of ambition

Ambition has various forms, names and of course followers. As people with foresight vision and wisdom says you ought to have passion for something. Trust me its easier said than done. Most\ people like me are passion less. They are a bored lot which is actually dreamless. There is everything but passion in the life. Beauty about passion is not exactly success. It gives you a reason for everything. I mean reason for everything be it some crazy decision, degrees of self abstinence and even right to commit same mistakes over and over again. So the dreary part of life is - the passion less lazy asses have to invent a new reason every now and then.

Let say inventing a reason every time is too much. So can a acquire a reason. Its not so unscrupulous. There are thousand’s of things which are not our own. Some are copied some are acquired or shall I say mostly inspired.

Lets keep it simple. For the simplest of choices and most uncomplicated decisions try and judge the prudence of money as an ambition. Well it might sound a little fancy but people do think money as an ambition is evil. Money cant be everything and deciding for money somehow underlies that you have compromised on morality. Ya sure all that jazz.

But to come to think of it if we put money as main ambition rather that some background ambition it will spare us a lot of troubling about deciding which way to choose. Which path to walk..What decision to make ..and of course where to find this goddamn Passion.