Poem from me

Well I used to be a poet.But then I used to be a lots of things which i have left now.But I thot my blog wdout a poem is definetely incomplete.So here it is "a creation from once a very twisted mind".
Existantial Exasperation

Drugs,rehabs to drill
Perdition to placebo pills
then why there is stillness still
Perhaps I am dead
of change I am scared
Jadded it looks
reality of course
Same o`l mirror
faces it makes
expressions it can fakes
Then what does it takes
For difference to be clear
Questions, abyss and fear
Reinvent self, O` dear

Love and 8 Day.

>The Valentine’s day of 2008.and I don’t have a date. (What a newsflash) actually its quite a wannabe sentence to put on the public domain but fak it neways. Amazingly I haven’t celebrated this awesome affection display day. Even when last year I had a date.But my love life has always been like a UPA government. Either a coalition alliance or convenience arrangement. Though I must confess that they have been more stable than the unconditional love thing because people are so sold out on “conditions apply” and skeptical of everything so I believe it’s a waste to be unconditional in relationships coz nobody no longer appreciates it.

So as to not to digress from the topic Mr. Thakrey got arrested ,Curfew in Pune and still I am sure the campus will be colored red with LOUVE. When love is in the air its best to stay indoors or you’ll have nausea. This too much emotion and love thing kinda make me sick and worse this whole concept of celebration of louve as if the concept and the follow up of the concept wasn’t a self-torture in itself. I think people celebrate it coz they want to reward themselves for taking such risk in life. ya may be that can justify the overhappiness. Talking about staying indoors I prefer getting soaked in alcohol rather than roaming on FC road with a red balloon. So I guess POA for tomorrow will be a quiet evening with BUD`wiser. I am actually amused with the suffix in the name. Don’t you think its better than being “Hay-ward” or Jin-Garo.

>My “random friend” is going out with some of her old buddy. This ‘theory of randomness is very interesting.(leave that for some drunken writing later.)Yesterday she wrecked her brain in figuring out why she hangs out with me. I don’t fits in her definition of coolness, I ain`t have cool friends either. She goes to Europe for holidaying and I go to Jim Corbit. She shops at Mango me still at Benetton sale. I don’t think that’s got to do with randomness but yup its true that there’s hardly anything which is common but I am still fond of her. Its funny how one became fond of other people even when you don’t have to do anything with the other. This fondness is very deceptive also sometime you don`t happen to read you own emotions well fak hell neways I hope my BUD will make me wiser one day.

>Today is the formal end of me at the Corporate Communications. Truthfully the only thing I really cared for in past 2 years at this place. Sure I could have done better no doubt about that it could have gone on a fast track and actually I don’t have plausible excuses to actually explain the situation. But still it was fun ..those 11th hour PPT`s ,finding matching soundtracks for those PPT`s and fixing the master slides. Of course there had been bulletins, magazines and editorials. Will I miss it ..Yes I would but somewhere I feel I would not like to do it again. My creative appetite has been reasonable satiated with the stint and personally I feel a little moved on from the normal chores of the committee. But sure it was fun and I thank all who made the whole experience satisfying.

Last nite it was a committee farewell day .All the people were out drinking and eating. Rejoicing the days spent reliving the moments. Before the nostalgia came it was quite a mayhem

Still caught up with “why`s” in life

Well off-late I have done some “general reading” which in other words called blog snooping. To be frank I was not an advocate of personal blogs.I always thought writing for public domain has to have a purpose and reason. I still believe in that purpose and reason part but enumeration of the personal life can help in keeping the head clear and keep it uncomplicated.

So I guess my further posts will be more personalized and less arbit. Its better to write about the things which matter rather than discussing about love troubles of Sarkozy or substance abuse by Britney Spears. Frankly since they don’t affect my life one bit so I guess it makes more sense in writing about what does.

“why MBA” :- this “why” from life is over. Today is the last day of the so called MBA grind. Frankly last 2 months had really been a resort than anything else. Whateva.. I couldn’t find the rationale to why MBA but I guess post placements I dint really bother also.
“why this place has Notions”
The so called infotech campus of the esteemed symbiosis clan…. funnily people at this B-school have amazing notions. Before anybody reads further in this let me tell you its got the most developed grapevine information transfers ever possible.
So thanks to such advanced technology in place everyday new discoveries about who is seein whom and who is trying on who is what we get to hear. We can make news in a fashion which can put India TV to shame.

Shantaram

As my status message has been screaming from some time about SHANTARAM I finally couldn’t resist to go to LEOPOLD Café. I am not sure if Gregory David aka “Shantaram” had found the same Leopold but yes it’s definitely a place to hang out.Its got tradition its got crowd its got ambience...in short everything I would like to have at my beer joint .

This also reminds me that 900+ pages of the book does deserve a salutation in my blog. Its a very informative book in various respects. Not just Leopold but the whole point of view which describes the country called India is terrific. India is too diverse a country to fall under any standard definition and worse the way the people of the country behaves is all the more intriguing.

Its amusing but a foreigners account helped me understand my country better .I am no book critic either but its was enlightening to dig into the rationale of the most normalest things which we take for granted as a part of the growing up in INDIA.

The book not only has some incredible personal account but it also says what makes India unique and also what makes Indians the race which they are. Now sure GDP is growing at more than 9% but that’s incidental. The beauty of my countrymen is their insatiable ambitions and tolerance to suffering. What an Indian can do to merely survive has now turned out to be the force which makes brand India sticks.

PS: please read INDIA in slow motion by Mark Tully ..another incredible read.

new look at blog writing

People say that my blogs are based in some fantasy land. And it needs iterations to decipher. Well I guess I am sorta showoff and always want an audience. Which apparently according to of course “people” again is not really a great thing so may be I should write about something more identifiable. I am not sure if I have the wisdom to comment on global topics or burning issues or would anybody be interested to read the daily happenings of my mundane existence but I guess nevertheless the rationale of writing the blog is be open about oneself and of course as they say -- to grow as an individual.

I guess I aint know much about the shit about growing and introspection and all that jazz. But what I do know is writing down all the crap which is making me muddled in the head will definitely can make the life much easier.

So lets get started.
As an aberration to daily schedule I dint check the sensex. My investments and hopes about getting rich are diminishing day by day so got really frustrated and didn’t bothered to check it. Its kinda ostrich technique and I cant really do the hiding act for long . Sometimes I think I should be better with personal finances. Well… someday…

Well I saw the movies which are now regular feature of my life .I think I can now became a movie critic. I don’t know what really the pay packages in this line are else I sure would have applied. One gets to see all the movies...premier shows...sneak peek reviews and all that …not bad for a career option.

There can be more options for sure. I was called for the brainstorming session. I am in 4th Sem of my (OH SO XCITING) MBA I love the people who still have hope about my capabilities about brainstorming. Anyway I didn’t let the opportunity go to throw in some perv jokes and cheap humor. Time well spent I would say.

There’s a thing called self depreciatory humour and I am so very obsessed with it. Its funny there’s some lame satisfaction in it. You can always say that I am the first one to laugh on myself as if disclaimers anybody even cares to read. But ya didn’t I said lame satisfaction. So lame it is I guess.

as usual ..random thoughts

The trivial and philosophical .there might just be some connection. I do not know .Life is a funny concept. Concept if I say so works in a time dynamics isn’t it? Its good to find something that controls it .

To find out that there is a pattern and trend which an individual’s life follows we question the deeds. But were they wrong. Had they been wrong we wouldn’t have done them at the first place. So from where do you start searching? Some say that you should plan and some say that you shouldn’t. You must live by the day. I think both techniques are flawed. If I could plan accuracy I wouldn’t have landed in the shit which I sometimes do. I wouldn’t have made mistakes .But again were they mistakes. They were true and justly behavior at that point of time .So should I be living by the moment? Then what about legacy? What about when you move ahead you cannot take all the people, issues, needs and emotions ahead. How should I make that emotional switch? Is there any such thing like that? .And if not then how can be living by the moment .Unless I keep my intellectual and emotional self separate. Big blasphemy!!

So is there any time dynamics or time is just a backend pacifiers. Time does try to diffuse the upheavals in life and more life just moves on. I can’t correct the mistakes neither can I suggest coz the root cause is me. Then what shall I do? Wait for the time to take over. I do not know. If it’s a waiting game then how can u say that control of destiny is in my hands? I agree that I can control the emotions but controlling is separate. Am I hinting at emotional and sanity payoff?

HA I don’t even know if such a kind of thing exist!!